i just realized this.

blogs are a lot more boring when theres no drama.

man i haven't updated in a little while.

I can't look at a car anymore without thinking its going to transform.

hearts warm as seasons do.

whenever i fill out any applications that ask for my name. i always write my name in capitals because its serious like that and people remember a powerful name.

i.e :




name: !!!!!GOBINDER DHILLON!!!!!

To all celebs:

I don't understand international artists.
Whenever they come to a Canadian city they'll always be like "whats up Canada?" or "hows it going Canada?" which annoys the HELL out of me because that doesn't make sense.
If you go to vancouver you say "whats up vancouver" not Canada. When you come to Toronto you say whats up Toronto and NOT Canada.

Honestly, when you tour around in the U.S you dont say sup America to every city you go to. You talk about the city your in. So whenever you come to Canada refer to the city not the country morons.

ive said alot of stupid things before but that was definatley uncalled for and uncharacteristic of me. and for that im sorry.


translation: that wasnt me. im sorry bear. you know who i really am.

It's settled.
HD-DVD will beat out Blue Ray in the format war because they just signed the porno industry.
Move over beta.

I'm so sick of the same formula in all mainstream movies.
i need something more.

i have new pants
and thus i am invincible.

These lyrics mean so much.

The song is called "the ocean" by the bravery.

I climbed up a mountain, and looked off the edge
At all of the lives that I never have led
Is one where I stayed with you, accross the sea
I wonder do you still think of me
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And i've look upon it for so many years
Slowy im loosing your face

[chorus]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

Sixs and sevens we live on jet planes
So many faces I don't know the names
So many friends now and none of them mine
Forgotten as soon as we meet
All of these moments are lost in time
But Your caught on my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me and I wonder why
Do I wish i've never known you at all

[chorus]
Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

The sun and the moon
An ocean of air
So many voices
But nothing is there
The ghost of you asking me why
Why did I leave

[chorus]

Oh the ocean rows us away, away, away
The ocean rows us away

Oh the ocean rows us away away away

And I loose your hand through the waves

its not that i can't get over it.
well no thats not true.
i cant get over it.
But i can try and live with it.


What else can i do rite?

i need another job.
i hate bestbuy.

I need endorphins

I've never been the jealous type. If she told me that she was gonna go out or w/e i wouldn't even think twice about it. Even if she was gonna go to a club (which she hasn't), again, i wouldn't think twice if not once about it. But this guy that's her friend is bothering me a bit. More so my dreams then my conscience mind. It keeps conjuring up images that are hurtful to the extreme.


I can just see it all happening.
It's gonna take a little bit longer for her to get over me. But she wont tell me she doesn't love me anymore cause she'll be afraid to. Then eventually he'll "develop feelings" for her and vice versa. She'll be really conflicted about it but then after some time she'll just "be with him" and hope that one of her friends will know about it and word will spread and i will find out that way .
Then i will go into another great depression...

bring on ww2.

Les Miserables

Everyday i wake up way before i should. I skip the morning piss and brushing teeth or even drinking water all so i could make my way to the basement and check my email, hoping that she wrote me something. Each and every morning i wake i hope that she wrote me something that i could deem as hopeful. That after i stare at a screen for a few minutes my entire world could change. And every morning i just set myself up for a fall.


I can feel it when i read what she writes. Every email and ever message or form of communication between me and her. I can tell she bites her tongue holding back emotionally charged words. Even though she says whats done is done and she stopped thinking about it, I can hear the conflict in her head. She wants to love, feel and connect with me and much as i want the same with her but theres a nagging voice in her mind that wont be silenced. It's grown louder over time. At first she paid no attention to it but obviously it grew to epic and unignorable proportions.

i wish i could find it and stone it.

But thats still apart of her. And she knows just as well as anyone i couldn't do a thing in all my power to hurt her.

miserables

Fridays

I used to look so forward to them. Eagerly awaiting to see your face that carries its rejuvenating properties. But now i just wither.

She's never online anymore.
i feel like shes avoiding me, trying to spare my feelings nes pas? Kinda like how she thinks of any excuse possible so she doesn't have to see me instead of just telling me she doesn't want to see me.
=/ hm.
ow.

Gobin wears prada

I now own my very first prada shirt. I'm no longer a designer-virgin. Hopefully i shall be going steady and gettin down with many more. My transformation is nearly complete.

On a completely unrelated note:
Doesn't everyone like situational irony?

f1st p0st 3v3r.

i don't think anyone would read this. In fact I'd rather no body actually read this. For the people who mistakingly stumble upon this you won't really understand what I'm talking about because I'll mostly be witting in a context that only I understand. So move along children.